08/15/2009: I’m worried about this situation. I’m worried that with Ruth and David back together, they’ll try and get Paige back. I’m worried David will visit Paige, fall in love with her – how could he not?! – and want her back despite Ruth’s threats. On the other hand, I’m worried they’ll fall off… Continue reading Chapter 19 – Conversations With A Convict
July 30, 2009: God, what have we gotten ourselves into? Will there be layer upon layer of problems we have yet to delve into, or is this the extent of it? I never thought of a genetic disorder, only issues from drugs, which I foolishly thought would resolve over time. Can I do this? ?… Continue reading Chapter 18 – Descending Into Appointment Hell
CHAPTER 17 OH SHIT, WHAT NOW? 07/19/2009: Found out Ruth took 3 mg or more of Klonopin from David’s stash when she was pregnant with Paige. Klonopin shouldn’t be taken during pregnancy… Paige’s case moves from Family Reunification to Adoptions after Ruth and David refuse services. Anita Michaels is assigned to our case. She is… Continue reading Chapter 17 – Oh Shit, What Now???
Paige rubs her eyes and pulls her blanket close. She tickles her nose and sniffs the blanket, her nostrils inhaling deeply and flaring back out erratically. She sucks furiously on her pacifier. “I know you’re getting tired, Sweetie,” I whisper, kissing her temple. “We’ll be done soon.” Dr. Hertford comes back and sits down at… Continue reading Chapter 14 – Something Not Quite Right (final)
March 10, 2009: There are many factors, which may be contributing to Paige’s presentation, including her prematurity, lack of prenatal care, and the drug exposure.* I sit in front of a corner desk in an examination room. Paige sits on my lap, smelling of diaper cream and baby shampoo. Her skin is smooth and tender, slightly… Continue reading Chapter 14 – Something’s Not Quite Right (part 2)
CHAPTER 14 SOMETHING’S NOT QUITE RIGHT March 2009: Paige does lots of screaming and shrieking and much of the time I cannot discern the reason. Her moods are often bipolar; shrieking with laughter one moment and in tears the next… It’s hard for me to be sympathetic when she’s obviously upset about something as stupid as taking off her… Continue reading Chapter 14 – Something’s Not Quite Right