The weeks go by without further contact from Charise. Ruth and David, either respecting our decision to stay out of things or too strung out to care, do not contact us again. Despite my attempts to let go and let God, my fear overwhelms me most days. “Do you think we did the right thing?”… Continue reading Chapter 23 – The Whole World… and Payton Too (final)
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July 30, 2009: God, what have we gotten ourselves into? Will there be layer upon layer of problems we have yet to delve into, or is this the extent of it? I never thought of a genetic disorder, only issues from drugs, which I foolishly thought would resolve over time. Can I do this? ?… Continue reading Chapter 18 – Descending Into Appointment Hell
I call Carole immediately after meeting with Anita. “I don’t know if Ruth took Dilantin while she was pregnant but I’ll certainly ask!” Email Message from Carole: I spoke with Ruth about taking anticonvulsant meds during her pregnancy with Paige. Ruth says she didn’t take any, but she did ask, in a somewhat irritated manner, why… Continue reading Chapter 17 – Oh Shit, What Now??? (part 2)
CHAPTER 17 OH SHIT, WHAT NOW? 07/19/2009: Found out Ruth took 3 mg or more of Klonopin from David’s stash when she was pregnant with Paige. Klonopin shouldn’t be taken during pregnancy… Paige’s case moves from Family Reunification to Adoptions after Ruth and David refuse services. Anita Michaels is assigned to our case. She is… Continue reading Chapter 17 – Oh Shit, What Now???
Paige rubs her eyes and pulls her blanket close. She tickles her nose and sniffs the blanket, her nostrils inhaling deeply and flaring back out erratically. She sucks furiously on her pacifier. “I know you’re getting tired, Sweetie,” I whisper, kissing her temple. “We’ll be done soon.” Dr. Hertford comes back and sits down at… Continue reading Chapter 14 – Something Not Quite Right (final)
March 10, 2009: There are many factors, which may be contributing to Paige’s presentation, including her prematurity, lack of prenatal care, and the drug exposure.* I sit in front of a corner desk in an examination room. Paige sits on my lap, smelling of diaper cream and baby shampoo. Her skin is smooth and tender, slightly… Continue reading Chapter 14 – Something’s Not Quite Right (part 2)